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SurreaL
06-17-2005, 04:53 AM
Suppose it's his b-day, If you don't recall the name, it's ok, he was a member, but took his own life a couple weeks before the corp went down, I do believe he does RIP, if not that's a sick joke, but either way RIP, peace.

TUCO
06-17-2005, 09:38 AM
he actually took his life on September (check my sig) but its sad we didnt know until later on
ima forever remember him for some of the best lyricism and flow on this site despite his sad traumatic words which dealt with his real evryday life at times...always hard to read
i know he's up there lookin down on us....still mourning him
may he forever Rest In Peace......love ya bro
Happy Birthday Jeff

peace

TUCO
06-17-2005, 10:29 AM
damn no one wants to pay some respects

peace

Definitive X
06-17-2005, 10:31 AM
Happy birthday, Ccabs! REST IN PEACE...

SurreaL
06-17-2005, 10:33 AM
damn st8

WolfMan
06-17-2005, 11:37 AM
RIP CCabs, and happy birthday!

Butter
06-17-2005, 11:39 AM
happy birthday and rest in peace.. sad to see someone go on such terms.

36chambers
06-17-2005, 11:51 AM
I dont remember this guy at all. But its a sad story, how come he took his own life?? ill sticky this for a week.

Rest in peace.

TonyStarks29
06-17-2005, 12:25 PM
R.I.P, it's sad when someone ends their own life.

BRASSKNUCKLED PAI MEI
06-17-2005, 12:25 PM
CCabsinthe02 may the angels have mercy upon you...

shadow_god
06-17-2005, 12:26 PM
r.i.p.

Da Ryda
06-17-2005, 12:27 PM
When Corp went down, he committed suicide? Hahahah... you maaad?

100pr00f
06-17-2005, 12:42 PM
r.i.p

TUCO
06-17-2005, 12:43 PM
I dont remember this guy at all. But its a sad story, how come he took his own life?? ill sticky this for a week.

Rest in peace.
he took his own life due to abuse from his dad, his folks never really paid much attention to him and he was just one depressed dude yo
i remember his mom sent me a email shortly after his death

and Ryda....im losin respect for you fam
chill with those comments

peace

Mark
06-17-2005, 12:54 PM
Damn damn, is this for real? How fucked up man. I don't remember this guy, but he was part of the forum and it's good to show respect.

REST IN PEACE

wu gambino
06-17-2005, 12:55 PM
Yea.. I remember hearing about this when it happened, but I never got the chance to know him, or read any of his rhymes. Truly is a sad story. Rest In Peace Jeff / CCabs. From what everyone is saying it sounds like you were a great person. Happy 20th? Birthday.

TUCO
06-17-2005, 12:56 PM
if u want an example of his wordplay and how depressing they were....jus read my banner
i had this made shortly after he passed away

peace

Ronin
06-17-2005, 01:02 PM
thats harsh, rip man

peace to his family

100pr00f
06-17-2005, 01:08 PM
i would like to see more of his work ...if u have more

Skellington
06-17-2005, 01:56 PM
he actually took his life on September (check my sig) but its sad we didnt know until later on
ima forever remember him for some of the best lyricism and flow on this site despite his sad traumatic words which dealt with his real evryday life at times...always hard to read
i know he's up there lookin down on us....still mourning him
may he forever Rest In Peace......love ya bro
Happy Birthday Jeff

peace
PEACE to CC man.

Good to see you still rockin' the memorial signature.

BRASSKNUCKLED PAI MEI
06-17-2005, 02:45 PM
you may be able to google his work

MefMan36
06-17-2005, 07:57 PM
Happy Birthday and RIP

num2son
06-17-2005, 08:53 PM
Happy Birthday and RIP
Same here.

TUCO
06-17-2005, 11:24 PM
he wouldve been 22 today
and if u cache his name on Google u might be able to salvage some work
for example....if u look for one of my collabs, Vocabulary Pt. III, u can see one of his last verses ever written
if sumone can....post some of his work here

peace

kell16
06-17-2005, 11:30 PM
r.i.p most def

i think we hear his name now

but he kickin it in heaven right now so i ain't worried

one love

G.A.L.
06-18-2005, 01:46 AM
Happy Birthday and...rip

SHRAP
06-18-2005, 02:36 AM
yea man i remember the guys writing, it was definitely reflective of a suicidal mindstate. its a shame he didnt get help. RIP my friend

002
06-18-2005, 06:51 AM
i remeber him. RIP

Wu-Tality
06-18-2005, 04:43 PM
R.I.P sad way to go

Wu-Fam Specializt
06-19-2005, 12:07 AM
Don't remember him at all, but R.I.P. to a fallen Corp member nevertheless.

O-N-E

Ghost_Deini_
06-19-2005, 12:29 AM
wow.. heres something i found from him...

"Before I post my rhyme, I just want it to be understood that I am not asking for pity in any way. I appreciate any feedback that I will get (if any), but I am not posting this "rhyme" to hear feedback about personal problems that I have. I don't care if this poem doesn't go to a beat, it goes with my own internal feelings. Every line that I write of this poem is true and I just ask people to look at this poem for what it is, and not the person writing it. Peace.

At the end of my life when I o.d., I hope the legacy
I leave omits all of the tortures that this life has placed on me.
My family is loving, and tries to get me to see my inner strengths and qualities.
Eventually, I must leave all this happiness and one day rest in peace.
Still, I walk the streets, unfurnished and down-beat,
Hating the people and the world, my life is just a black sea.
Full of depression and bountiful amounts of anxiety.
My attitude on life offends many people, but its my real personality.
I'm drowning internally, shackles and chains all over me, when the fuck will I become free?"

amazing.... RIP.

Ghost_Deini_
06-19-2005, 12:39 AM
"My style is liscensed violence, yours is patent-pending mindless
Spineless non-talented mockeries that need to be put in silence.
But I guess that with every word its a step.
Spit darts at the world and don't stop till no one is left.
Like a big empty cleft just waiting to be filled.
Shots in the dark, no suspects except the usual
Fools that use grammar tools to expose all the loose
Rappers missing tax day and they late on paying they dues.
I'm a little confused that all this angst could be so abused.
Drug use helps those who need it in this pool of ruthless tunes.
Hesitation and drama could lead our world into bad karma
It's like you need to wear a condom just as body armor
to stop all the diseases that this world has started.
Thinking back on the day when the world was a safe place.
Now its just a time-bomb bout to blow up, just seconds away."

cd
06-19-2005, 06:58 AM
I always enojoyed readin his work, he was one of the best members in the Temple whether it was posting his own work or leaving feedback. Sometimes the waters get too deep tomake it to the surface but he is definately missed. Just a shame. RIP.

mashqauck
06-19-2005, 05:38 PM
damn dude that sucks. someone should rap all off his works or make a book of em. that would be nice. but man, rip.

SurreaL
06-19-2005, 06:28 PM
Rip

LadyRectah
06-19-2005, 10:28 PM
Que Descanse en PAZ

Nexodus the Nth Entity
06-20-2005, 12:57 AM
this may be belated, but rest in peace to a fallen member of the wtc community

Protection
06-20-2005, 08:54 AM
Damn, he died on my birthday, September 6th.

May he rest in peace.

kingGirlfriend
06-20-2005, 11:02 AM
Rest In Peace.

I-Legit
06-20-2005, 10:12 PM
wow.. heres something i found from him...

"Before I post my rhyme, I just want it to be understood that I am not asking for pity in any way. I appreciate any feedback that I will get (if any), but I am not posting this "rhyme" to hear feedback about personal problems that I have. I don't care if this poem doesn't go to a beat, it goes with my own internal feelings. Every line that I write of this poem is true and I just ask people to look at this poem for what it is, and not the person writing it. Peace.

At the end of my life when I o.d., I hope the legacy
I leave omits all of the tortures that this life has placed on me.
My family is loving, and tries to get me to see my inner strengths and qualities.
Eventually, I must leave all this happiness and one day rest in peace.
Still, I walk the streets, unfurnished and down-beat,
Hating the people and the world, my life is just a black sea.
Full of depression and bountiful amounts of anxiety.
My attitude on life offends many people, but its my real personality.
I'm drowning internally, shackles and chains all over me, when the fuck will I become free?"

amazing.... RIP.
i remember the bold one and the one Ghost Dieni posted after your post.....

wow R.I.P. to CCabs....he needed attention but got it in all the wrong ways, i know how he feels. my best friend killed himself Dec. 7th of '03, i'll make a thread on Dec 7th. post pics of me and him n such.....

R.I.P

Treazon
06-20-2005, 10:37 PM
I remember this guy havin mad threads in the temple, and he was on of the best writers ive seen on this site easily, although he reminded me more of a poet than a rap lyric writer...but nonetheless he had skill and poured all of his energy and emotion into his writings and it showed. Peace to this fallen artist and i hope he can find it finally..

36chambers
06-21-2005, 08:15 AM
Peace CCabsinthe02

I-Legit
06-21-2005, 08:17 AM
why is this un-sticky?

36chambers, You Got Soem Explaining To Do

Oh Shit, Did You Ever Go To Japan, Tokyo? Like you Said U Were Going To B4 The Corp Crashed?
I Hooked Up Pages And Pages Beyond Pages Of Shit For You To Do There..Rememebr That....

How Was It If U Went?

CCabsinthe02
07-11-2005, 11:25 AM
CCabsinthe02 (June 17, 1984 - Aug. 6, 2004) would have been 21 this year.

His family, friends, & his girlfriend grieve his loss - there was no one like him. He was the spark that lit up our lives and now his light has gone out.

Our son was sick for over two years - he saw many doctors, took multiple medications, worked, went to college, tried to lead a normal life - but never told us the depth of his despair.

He was able to express his fears and innermost thoughts on this website - although he shared many poems with his father and I, he never shared the ones that revealed his suicidal thoughts. No, he was never abused or mistreated. He was very hard on himself - expecting perfection. He was so talented - a poet, muscian, an athlete. He was a beautiful person - his future success was guaranteed - but he couldn't see it. CCabs Mom

100pr00f
07-11-2005, 12:35 PM
thanks for sharing......peace

Mark
07-11-2005, 01:14 PM
That's good. Thanks for posting that CCabsinthe02's mommy. I feel that. Keep faith. Peace.

I lost one of my very best friends last feb... He also commited suicide. I never really talk about it with my internet homies, but I do know how it feels to loose somebody who is damn close to you. And the fact that the person ended his own life makes it more sad. Suicide is something that I never understood. But my friend left me a letter youknow. Since I know what it actually is and since I know how painfull it is for the friends and family that have to deal with it after his/her death, I have more respect for people who end their life. It's like nature sometimes. It happens and nobody can't stop it. It will happen anyway.

PolitiC
07-11-2005, 01:18 PM
peace to his soul & family

Mark
07-11-2005, 01:20 PM
Posted by CCabsinthe02 may 2004

Topic name: Rigid Lining



Existential concepts lined with military bomb-threats.
People react from the fact that safety is a term to cover our sudden Anthrax death.
Our conquests on this planet are nothing more than mere nonsense.
We worship material objects while our brains get twisted and depressed.
So we go to a doctor in hopes of conquering this ailing pest.
Reality hits the pavement when we realize we're addicts to this drug wasteland.
We try and befriend the devil while we quietly whisper Amen.
No sentence can justify this inner anger that intensifies.
All I have to shield myself is darkness where I lie and hide.
My soul has already died and been sent to the devil.
It's my last day, last breath, fade pain, accept death.
We are already imprisoned by society, but I'll be damned if I let them define my personality.

**I had another line that I thought up, but couldn't fit it in this rhyme**
I feel uncomfortable around my relatives,
So I stay dosed up on tranquilizers and sedatives.





I feel uncomfortable around my relatives,
So I stay dosed up on tranquilizers and sedatives.
Anxiety is repetitive, so I stay in a state of readiness.
Anything can happen, but I must not give in to a temptress,
I have anger I wanna vent this, but all that comes out is silence.
It's like all this inner violence has controlled my thought process.
Ever since I can remember, I have been a victim of all this nonsense.
I'm only 20 but feel I've lived a life longer than any prophet.
I have one wing, I continue to breathe until my heart stops the beat
And I drop underneath the earth, and into a lucid dream.
Things aren't what they seem, when reality is distorted for me.
All I want is to be free, but I cannot break the shackles and chains binding me
To eternal slavery, but due to improper behavior lost my soul and became empty.
I feel apathy towards everything, but only sympathy for my destiny.





"Our conquests on this planet are nothing more than mere nonsense" true.....

"We are already imprisoned by society, but I'll be damned if I let them define my personality"
feelin the 1st verse.. for real...

"Ever since I can remember, I have been a victim of all this nonsense.
I'm only 20 but feel I've lived a life longer than any prophet.
I have one wing, I continue to breathe until my heart stops the beat"

really feelin this... also the last 3 lines. it's like i wrote this, for real.(except for the different styles) keep droppin C. Peace

Decka
07-11-2005, 01:21 PM
rip ccabs

100pr00f
07-11-2005, 01:23 PM
Posted by CCabsinthe02 may 2004

Topic name: Rigid Lining






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pretty nice stuff

Mark
07-11-2005, 01:24 PM
CCabsinthe02 posted this May 2004:

The Dark Tunnel

Anger pulses through the veins of the strange.
Compassion melts the reactions from the rats encaged.
Instead of living life, I chose to be mentally insane.
That way I've already lost everything, and nothing more can be taken away.

When you're a schizophrenic drug addict with panic attacks,
Girls tend to hesitate to call you, some even give your digits back.
But in the end, we are all going to amount to whatever we can adapt,
Only problem with living lacking morals, I don't know how to react to an attack.

When the darkness comes to swallow the evening till tomorrow,
I lose my euphoria, switch to feeling sorrow in this hollow empty bottle.
Try and see life through your own eyes, not giving in to the temptations around you.
Whenever someone strikes at my pride, I run but can't hide, so what else is there to do?

I close my eyes and feel the heat rise from the past tides that have washed by,
I'm emotional and want to cry, but all I feel is the pain that burns inside.
Without a guide I stride, through this hellish existence we call life,
Hoping I can outlive the suicide that tempts me with its knife.





i feel this shit, son. for real....

a lot of deep lines...

"That way I've already lost everything, and nothing more can be taken away"

there's nothin more dangerous than a man with nothin to lose, for real.

"Without a guide I stride, through this hellish existence we call life,
Hoping I can outlive the suicide that tempts me with its knife."

that's what i always say: "it's all shit."

the rhymes were good too, also the flow. nice piece. one love






deep.... you're improving ya rhythm and flow too. subject matter is deep, especially feelin the last two verses. PEACE



Reply from CCabsinthe02:

I can't tell you both (oo2 and Winte) how much your feedback means to me. Not only is it coming from 2 of the dopest mcs on this site, but it is also inspiration that you give me to write more. I can't thank you enough for the time you took to read my verse, and the feedback that was given. Peace and Love.

Mark
07-11-2005, 01:27 PM
You can find all his old posts on GOOGLE.com and search IN CACHE.

Like this one: http://216.239.59.104/search?q=cache:mw849dNAOwMJ:www.wutangcorp.com/showthread.php%3Ft%3D40463+CCabsinthe02+2004&hl=nl

36chambers
07-11-2005, 01:42 PM
good work mark.

100pr00f
07-11-2005, 01:49 PM
thanks

blackwisdom
07-11-2005, 04:11 PM
We did a few collabs. He loved my work and my critiques of his. I noticed the darkness of his words but looked at it as an escape. I never throught that he would trully escape this harsh reality the way he did. Sometimes you really need to listen to people's faint cries for help. I'm touched through reminiscing over this situation. Rest in peace man. I pray that your transition to the ancestors has been a peaceful experience.

May God bless all of his children

peace