Life is a mirror. every thought, decision and action you make is reflected/ manifested through your life. I thought I understood this, but it took me 10 years to really do so.
thats the vibe i got from your post anyway
5 years ago, there was this italian colleage i used to hang out with. thought he was cool until he started talking a bout a big conspiracy around him, cameras in his house, people follwing him. One night he confronted me telling me i was one of "them". that was the weirdest conversation in my life ever lol