striving for something u cant have
i found that memories kept me from falling of the rails after ma sleep/nutrient deprivation.
memories of the feelings i had for a queen helped me stay strong. i didnt need olanzapine..i took anyway. all it did was make me sleepy. doctors said i need that shit for a year but im already of that. my own choice.
but yeah i just wanted to say that i think meditating on something that means alot to u can be a good technique for bettering urself. i aint saying anything new its just i found it to be apparent