...and deconstruct/reconstruct your religions from the ground up.
Taking knowledge from a text is like learning a traditional martial art's forms...like Bruce Lee said "it's like learning to swim on dry land."
If you do enough chemicals, you'll be faced with an existential crisis and you'll realize that there are choices about what you can be about. I believe one needs to consider the full implications of a belief, including the contingencies of non-belief of said belief.
Anyone who "teaches" you something is trying to control you. Creativity is the renegade apprehension of a text.
And you know what? You might find out you don't know what to think about what's really going on. That's cool, some things are unknowable. But it's much better to trust your intuition than some other MAN's dogma.
Just a suggestion. By the way, I'm trying to spread anarchy, but only on the human plane. Allow no man to tell you how to think. Transcending what men think, you'll discover a war going on a level beyond 3dimensions on the Time continuum. Or at least, I have.