I wish i had something to give
that in return, would give back the feeling
of having something to lose...
I'm so guilty man there's nothing to prove
As my thoughts pass by,
My childhood windows, i break up and ask why
I feel like the sixth piece
of a five piece puzzle, so left out and unneeded
I'm too many years deep in trouble
Cuz socially i was a space shuttle
Isolated in my own world
WHich has become my own hell
I'm burning inside, but look at my face...you can't tell
My mom's is like ooh well, when he gets back in school
this will go away,
Little does she know i can feel colder days
I've been rained on everyday for months now
And i have to fight a thousand yards
Just for a touchdown
On to my happy side
Which isn't near what it use to be
I can't hold conversations, depression's confusing me
Its like everyday its the same challenge
And i have to see or talk to certain people
Just to maintain balance
As I'm steps away from pain, miles away from joy
I wake up hoping i can smile today....
Maybe the sunshine will cause my clouds to break
Then i can be me...
I swear that's all i want to see
Is it too much to ask, too much to pray for?
Am i drinking from the glass of change
Too much, too fast?
I'm fighting a two-front battle as i try to make friends
Struggling through depression's war grounds
It makes my mind state spin
Sometimes it seems insurmountable but still
I continue to climb to stable land to expand and build
On a person, who never did the right things
With the people in which to now his whole life clings