Self

[Born Ruler I]

The further outside of yourself you search, the further from the truth you get
The further outside of yourself you search, the further from the truth you get
The further outside of yourself you search, the further from the truth you get
The further outside of yourself you search, the further from the truth you get

My first environment, aquatic in nature
No life sustaining supplement for self through air born vapor
Waves and streams, current penetrates
At a rate from slow to straight tight light laser beams
Denied my own breath to make a scream
One greater is supplying my breath
In this realm I grow, kick, punch, and step
Flexing muscles and tendons
Sick of liquid lunch diet, sick of quiet
Intermittent sensation suspension
My two eyes can’t see where my 3rd eye’s been
From heaven’s where I came, the hidden god, Amen
Emerge into a different state of being
Being baptized and born
Pulled through an opening left torn
Compared to what’s before me, I am small in stature
Get raised up and captured by the rapture
A god of this world smacks me, I finally start speaking
Wet and cold, I behold my old universe leaking

The further outside of yourself you search, the further from the truth you get
The further outside of yourself you search, the further from the truth you get
The further outside of yourself you search, the further from the truth you get
The further outside of yourself you search, the further from the truth you get

I yell, but no one’s listening, fear causes tears
A different god cradles me, whispers in my ear
Familiar, a language I’ve heard but never mastered
Everything here seems to be moving faster
Understand the vibrations, having come from underwater
Still need hydration, H2O, about 3 quarters
Having been in space where I was muted
Each attempt at forming their words makes me feel like I am stupid
Need to study this language, this system of mathematics
Embody it as my own so actions are automatic
Drinking a sweet substance by a nurturing goddess
It seems all my needs are being met by this goddess
Singing lullabies, soprano, I faintly recognize
The other god’s bass tone leaves me mesmerized
I’m learning this dimension, an alternate perspective
I close two eyes, open my 3rd, I’m resurrected

The further outside of yourself you search, the further from the truth you get
The further outside of yourself you search, the further from the truth you get
The further outside of yourself you search, the further from the truth you get
The further outside of yourself you search, the further from the truth you get

I break from the god and goddess, explore on occasion
They always seem to find me, I’ve suffered mild abrasions
They smack me sometimes in the place I let my food go
In or out, depending on the volume of my shouts
I cover my mouth, get the primal urge to scream
Don’t want to go to sleep, I remember in my dreams
My 3rd eye awakens, I see my destination
The same place from which I came to this inverse habitation
Reject this slave existence, physical limit a hindrance
Guidance by my goddess and god, with persistence
Each step I take now, the closer to home I get
Crucified in a struggle each time the sun sets
Suspended in an ocean, current against my body
Nutrition from my goddess, voice of my god, see
I return to heaven at regular intervals
Long before my physical is nitrogen and minerals

The further outside of yourself you search, the further from the truth you get
The further outside of yourself you search, the further from the truth you get
The further outside of yourself you search, the further from the truth you get
The further outside of yourself you search, the further from the truth you get