Life After Death !

[LORD NOSE]

Originally Posted by Koolish

i suppose it all boils down to: where is the mind? is the mind the brain or is the mind a separate thing from the brain?

if it is truly separate than the ceasing of brain functions would not affect your existence.

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[rakimkoolgrapwutang]

man would rather will the void, than be void of will

[Ol' Dirty Trixˣ]

i still don't know what to think because of these flying things i see.

i was pretty certain the very first ones i saw was my granddad, i saw them back in '04 or '05 or '06, i can't remember which year but i definitely remember their appearance. they hit my in the face and i immediately thought they were acting like bullets hitting me in the gentlest way possible. then the next thought that came to mind was it was my granddad showing me how he really died.

i never knew my granddad cos he died way before i was born. the story that my parents and elders have told us kids is that granddad had died of old age. no one ever questioned that story. i never questioned it either.

when i next saw my dad we had a madness. then i said to him i know how granddad died. he asked how did he die then? i looked at him and said he got shot. when he heard that he was stunned silent, he couldn't look me in the eye. i knew i was right.

i'm pretty sure that flying thing that landed on my packet of Golden Virginia my kind nurse bought me from her trip to the US was Biggie back in 2011.

[LORD NOSE]

Originally Posted by Ol' Dirty Trixˣ

i'm pretty sure that flying thing that landed on my packet of Golden Virginia my kind nurse bought me from her trip to the US was Biggie back in 2011.

"baby baby"

[Ol' Dirty Trixˣ]

i know it landed on the packet of Golden Virginia (i prefer American Spirit, btw) but i don't know where about in my room the packet was laying.

i can't remember if i placed the packet on my chest of drawers so i can take better pics of it or if it was already sitting on my chest of drawers.

[Ol' Dirty Trixˣ]

i just worked out my granddad was killed in 1963. cos the story goes that he died when one of my aunts was 6 years old.

do you believe he was waiting 40 odd years to tell me the truth about his death?

[Ol' Dirty Trixˣ]

when the one i believe was Biggie appeared.

it appeared while a song with a Biggie sample played. it was a sample of Biggie's Dead Wrong.

[Notorious B.I.G.]
Relax and take notes, while I take tokes of the marijuana smoke
Throw you in a choke - gun smoke, gun smoke
Biggie Smalls for mayor, the rap slayer
The hooker layer - motherfucker say your prayers
Hail Mary full of grace.. smack the bitch in the face;
Take her Gucci bag and the North Face
Off her back, jab her if she act
Funny with the money oh you got me mistaken honey
I don't wanna rape ya, I just want the paper
The Visa, kapeesha? I'm out like, "The Vapors"
Who's the one you call Mr. Macho, the head honcho
Swift fist like Camacho, I got so
Much style I should be down wit the Stylistics
Make up to break up [singing in background] niggaz need to wake up
Smell the indonesia; beat you to a seizure
Then fuck your moms, hit the skins til amnesia
She don't remember shit! Just the two hits!
Her hittin the floor, and me hittin the clits!
Suckin on the tits! Had the hooker beggin for the dick
And your moms ain't ugly love; my dick got rock quick
I guess I was a combination of House of Pain and Bobby Brown
I was "Humpin Around" and "Jump-in Around"
Jacked her then I asked her who's the man; she said, "B-I-G"
Then I bust in her E-Y-E (Yo Big, you're dead wrong)

just as Biggie said the words "gun smoke" in the song, i was thinking of lyrics of another song in my head, the words "trigger cries" from Propane Nightmares and that's when the flying thing appeared.

"Propane Nightmares"

Something's tearing me down
And I can't help but feel it's coming from you
She's a gunshot bride
With a trigger cries
I just wonder what we've gotten ourselves into

In a trail of fire I know we will be free again
In the end we will be one
In a trail of fire I'll burn before you bury me
Set your sights for the sun

Mind is willing
Soul remains
This woman cannot be saved
From the drawn into the fire

Mind is willing
Soul remains
This woman cannot be saved
From the drawn into the fire

Anything to
Bring it on home
Bring it on home
Bring it on home
Bring it on home

Much too weak to jump yourself
Heal the wounds or crack the shell
Lift yourself from once below

Much too weak to jump yourself
Heal the wounds or crack the shell
Lift yourself from once below

Praise the anger
Bring it on home
Bring it on home
Bring it on home
Bring it on home

In a trail of fire I know we will be free again
In the end we will be one
In a trail of fire I'll burn before you bury me
Set your sights for the sun
Bring it on home

the flying thing flew around for about 15-30 secs.

then landed on the word "you" on the health warning on the front of the packet of Golden Virginia.

was Biggie trying to tell me something?

[Ol' Dirty Trixˣ]

the one that appeared during the song 1251 by The Strokes could well be someone i briefly knew but died just over a year ago. the time 12.51 is significant to me and this other person and he was related to the person that died. he'd already passed away before the time 12.51 became significant.

"12:51"

Talk to me now I'm older
Your friend told you 'cause I told her
Friday nights have been lonely
Change your plans and then phone me.

We could go and get 40s
Fuck goin' to that party
Oh really, your folks are away now?
Alright, let's go, you convinced me.

12:51 is the time my voice
Found the words i sought...
Is it this stage I want?

The world is shutting out...for us.
We were tense for sure,
But we was confident...

Kiss me now that I'm older
I won't try to control you
Friday nights have been lonely
Take it slow but don't warn me

We'd go out and get 40s
Then we'd go to some party
Oh really, your folks are away now?
Alright I'm coming...

I'll be right there.

[Ol' Dirty Trixˣ]

i did record one during the song Where You Are by Rahsaan Patterson. no idea who it was though.

Baby forgive me
For making you wait so long
Girl, please believe that
It's due to my lack of funds

Baby, I swear
I'm gonna find a way to get out of here
'Cause I wanna be where you are

I've got to get to where you are
'Cause I can't stand bein' apart from you
Just to think of your smile
Sooths my soul for a while, girl, it's true, yes

I've got to get to where you are
I'll take a bus, plane, train or car
All I know is that I must find a way
To get to where you are

Oh, what a feeling?
Oh, what a sweet surprise?
[Incomprehensible]
Staring into your eyes

Baby tonight, I'll hitch a ride
And leave everything behind
'Cause I wanna be where you are

I've got to get to where you are
'Cause I can't stand bein' apart from you
Just to think of your smile
Sooths my soul for a while, girl, it's true, yeah

I've got to get to where you are
I'll take a bus, plane, train or car or anywhere
Yes, all I know is that I must find a way
To get to where you are, oh

Ooh, I've gotta
You are
I've gotta gotta get where you are
Where you are, oh

Umm, umm, umm, umm
Umm, umm, umm
Umm, umm, umm, umm
Umm, umm, umm

I've got to get to where you are
'Cause I can't stand bein' apart from you
Just to think of your smile
Sooths my soul for a while, girl, it's true

I've got to get to where you are
I'll take a bus, plane, train or car
All I know is that I must find a way
To get to where you are, yeah

I've got to get to where you are
'Cause I can't stand bein' apart from you
Just to think of your smile
Sooths my soul for a while, girl, it's true

I've got to get to where you are
I'll take a bus, plane, train or car
All I know is that I must find a way
To get to where you are

I've got to get to where you are
'Cause I can't stand bein' apart from you
Just to think of your smile
Sooths my soul for a while, girl, it's true

I've got to get to where you are
I'll take a bus, plane, train or car

[Ol' Dirty Trixˣ]

i remember sitting up in my bed the very first time i saw them. it was 3 dots/specks that appeared at the foot of the bed at eye level. i didn't know wtf they were. i watched them and didn't move an inch. i watched them slowly float horizontally from the foot of my bed towards my head at the top of the bed. i did not lose sight of them, they definitely hit me in the face but i didn't feel any pain or anything.

i don't remember what i was thinking about before they appeared. but i do remember thinking they were bullets when they appeared. these ones weren't long like the ones i've got photos of, these were just dots/specks.

[Sosa]

we keep people alive spiritually through memories, and these memories can be very powerful, and very real.

hey trixx why did you neg rep me for trying to turn my life around? we can't all spend our time paying our attention to alcohol induced blinky lights as if they're apparitions.

i'm getting back on the meds i think, i need some chemicals to replace the chemicals i'm quitting.

[Ol' Dirty Trixˣ]

i don't have any memories of him. he died 14 years before i was born. i wasn't told any stories of him nor have i seen any photos of him.

only thing i was told about him was he died of old age. which i found out was a lie. not gonna ask my elders anything else cos i reckon they'll just tell me more lies.

[Sosa]

answer my question kooky booty

[LORD NOSE]

Trixx - you already got a thread for that - i'm going to put your post in that thread -

[Ol' Dirty Trixˣ]

ok