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Old 08-17-2008, 06:02 PM   #886
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Default No pressure

I opened doors
Chased my fears
And got used to shedding tears

I quit in my worst
and tryed in my best
Half dead i know i'm nothing like the rest

All i wants a
Helping hand or
A sturdy shoulder to withstand

The weight of me
The pain of me
I can't tell if that's plain to see

I'll be your slave
If your mines too
In this darkness i'll find you

I haven't hate
All i have is love
But i can't show you through a hug

Relace your shoes
Spit shine your teeth
Take all the time that you need

Please don't push me
back down your steps
Your rejection'd be my death

I'm learning to shoot
as i'm attacked
There's no one here to watch my back

But if i fall
Don't blame yourself
Its wasn't your job to come and help

A lonely childhood of
All regrets
The people i ignored i won't forget

With pure respect
a true apology
Your absence deeply bothers me

And to a friend
One last thought
Please don't fear me because i'm lost

Someday soon
I might regain control
Of my mind, body, and soul
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Old 08-19-2008, 08:00 AM   #887
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Default Realization of depths

I'm done with saying i'll never do "it"
Because adjacent to loosing one person
I know i'll be so close to "it"

What it is, its ending my life
Its risking hell,
Its facing he, who has me
Thinking in tears deep into the night

As a child, i could only do what i felt
was most comfortable in a
enviornment that didn't want me...
That misguided sick teen didn't
and couldn't have prevented
what now haunts me....

Me and you, nothing alike
I'm so sorry for trying to mix
water with oil...
Just please don't
Dissapear into the air
when i'm forced to boil...

I guess i'll pack up for a long ride
I've lost my feelings and i can't move
My reality was hiding from my eyes
Now that its found, its shown i'm doomed

I've been alone for too much time
The past churns these waves inside of me
Everyday i see myself drown and die
It seems now my hope has to lie to be
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Old 08-19-2008, 08:35 PM   #888
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Default Winter Windchills

Its made everything i loved
things not to look foward to
While turning my family against me
Challenging my fortitude

I'm worthless,
Like sand on a beach for purchase
Selling water to flooded rivers
I will not find a purpose

My joy's a fantasy
I daydream of feeling it again
As reality breaks in
And depression's stealing it again

Just throw me in your trash can
Spit on me with your coldest face
Run me off your road side and
I'm at home in that familar place

I don't deserve the sunshine
Belonging only in the darkest space
I've stumbled my whole run-time
Why'd I have to start this race?

This is not a dog fight
I cannot battle this to my death
I'll give up well before old age
Decides i'm primed for last breaths

When i'm free from myself
On paroll from my doorless cage
At least for that one day
Would you thrust an axe into my pain?

I know now i'm never in control
But i can and will respond to you
While screeching screams haunt my soul
Drowning out all harmonic tunes

I'm bleeding red in windchill blues
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Old 08-22-2008, 09:35 PM   #889
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Default Far away from home

For me to be, i have to cry
Sadness and anger's all depression hasn't claimed
So just to make me feel alive
These eyes drip pain, expressing in vein

Guilt, yeah he's a close comrad
He always says I'm responsible
for eveything that has gone bad

I'm sorry mom, my feet were too small for my shoes
So i tripped, stumbled, and fell
through all of my youth

I couldn't see where to walk untill
Eighteen years of age
I found,
I was playing with blades
but didn't feel the pain till' now

And the only relief i have is people
A select few who never knew
they pull me from the reach of evil

I can't start to value what they mean to me
They're maybe like
The only rays of light in the darkest scenery

But sometimes....even they can't make me
feel joy
As my mind becomes death to the call of my boy

THis boy, he's just me, everything i could be
If i had one wish,
When i opened my eyes he's everything i would see

And it hurts, not to think or even talk like him
As depression reigns in my head
This kid inside...i label dead

I won't fight him ever again
I swear if nothing else
When he's back for good
There'll only be a fear, not to be myself
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Old 08-23-2008, 06:20 PM   #890
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Default Kill this, Kill it, Kill me

He whispers in my ears
find a knife and end this life
There's nothing for you here
No one can ever save you from me
As i fear,
Suicide will find me in the night
in tears,
How could ending all this pain not be right?
Just try,
I know i'll fall if you put me down
With eyes,
Of rejection...
Its all of what my death would be now
Lets die,
A small part of you, and all of me
Hang me from the tallest tree
End all the endless agony
Just act,
Like it really had to be
I'll forgive,
WHo ever gets mad at me
Death is,
All my eyes have to see
Take my life,
Don't worry, you can have it free
But believe,
That this was not the tradgedy...of me
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Old 08-26-2008, 08:37 PM   #891
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Default That lost boy

Another stone, fails to skip the pond
And by the dawn, last night's tears are gone
Off steep banks, the river's too low to reach
Keep away, from secrets too cold to speak
There's the boy, who's self is undiscovered
His early years, now forced him undercover
Someone saw, and let him out of his cage
The last thing, protecting him from pain
Seventeen, reality has got to change
In this ring, nothing feels the same
Loneliness's effects can now be felt
Without the support of denial's shelf
He didn't connect with people quick enough
So diamonds, turned to coal in the ruff
His mom says, hospital or the streets
If his tone, doesn't seem to fit her beat
She doesn't know, like everyone else
He's got problems, that no one can help
They're part of him so they will never leave
If they could, the salts could freeze the seas
He turns his head, to a blessing in disguise
Its a friend, but with fear flooded eyes
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Old 08-30-2008, 01:17 PM   #892
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Default "What i'm from, which has and which was"

I'm from leather belts, and wooden paddles
A screwface with sliding tears

Anxiety, confusion, and withdrawal
face to face with social fears
---------
I'm from a childhood of long walks
down the wrong paths

Which has lead me to a mental illness
my mom hates to know i have
---------
I'm from too many years of
deep denial and isolation

Now I'm in daily melancholy with
the realization of my creations
---------
I'm from staring at grown men
wondering if they're my father

Me, to my unasked questions was
like a cannon to its fodder
---------
I'm from being shaped as if
I were never meant to fit in

And problems i can't figure out
with a mathematician's pen
---------
I'm from swimming in the air
and flying through the waters

Quickly alienating my own self
from common birds and otters
---------
I'm from drowning in those lakes
and falling from those skies

Its like me living...was really
just me dying in disguise
---------
I'm from a boy who never knew
the mistakes he made

Would form a hopeless teen
shedding liquid pain as he prays
---------
I'm from gaps I couldn't feel or
fill between loneliness and happiness

Making me so desperate today
I'd shake the hand you smacked me with
---------
Which isn't from being a real loner
and not from just being shy

But from, my true self being
incarcerated by design
---------
I'm from not recognizing, and then
rejecting a friend's call

Sitting in corners of rooms watching
but never seeing what i saw
---------
Which came from trying to survive
with misguided sight

Now "what's left"? I was blind sided
by what I thought to be "right"
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Old 09-03-2008, 06:56 PM   #893
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Default The independent Variable

My smiles assure me that my mind is sick
As tears show off my highest liveliness
And excitement's just some thing of the past
Now anxiety burns that emotion to ash
Anyday, rejection could pour the hardest rains
I'm too scared to tell who, from which it came
My humor and joy, can only come out when
I find a friend on top of a mountain
Its never easy to try, but its easy to fail
For me it easy to cry, but not easy to tell
There's only one i've found, to ease the pain
We relate because i'm truly ill, and he's the same
But what if i loose, this only glow in my darkness
I'll be here alone again, back where I started
Square one, with my mind stuck on rewind
Not caring about the train coming up from behind
Wondering worths, striking the coroding hopes
In the lakes of mistakes, will my head forever soak?
No I'm far from free, I can rarely find myself
And i can't feel the day, that i won't need some help
I won't take the way, this life has taught me
I'll just fade away,
From my reflections in razor blades, softly
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Old 09-04-2008, 05:41 PM   #894
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Default The lost forest fire

The cracking branch
The splitting rope
The blackening woods cannot withstand
Creeks in droughts,
Fish on land,
The smoking cabin with a sleeping man
-
Who could save
What seems to be
Destined to die in waving flames?
Few have tryed
And all have failed
His sick reality remains the same
-
He dreams of joy
Behind a door
with locks without any keyholes
Will god send rain
to calm the fires
In the form of nameless people?
-
He's all alone
And still he sees
those smiles, and space between
His stagnant life
and normality
He won't join that broken seam
-

As of now
He's burning
His mind is dying
And as of now
its concerning
no one....trying
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Old 09-05-2008, 03:37 PM   #895
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Default The Unatural

The greens are black
brown and gray
Beds are dry
As rivers strayed
Roots reach up to the sky
Its not meant to be this way
-
Rocks will float
And shadows blind
In too much darkness for my shine
Boats settle to sea floors
I can't choose hell over time
-
Frosted skins
Frozen blood
Who ever knew what i was?
Invisible while i'm watched
Because it does what it does
-
Now i'm unseen
I've always been
Under siege deep within
Freedom's free but hard to pin
down to my soul in violent winds
-
What to do
Where to go
All my air's becoming smoke
As i fade away from those
Who i've naturally chose
-
Alone, I"m home
Its the state
of mind from which i raised
Now as sky blues turn to haze
I feel the urgency of change
-
And in this land
Of liquid streets
All have failed to swim with me
As i drown, most will say
that here, i could never be
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Old 09-08-2008, 05:52 PM   #896
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Default Wax paper

A sheet of wax paper
always kept me lost
As i couldn't quite tell what my eyes did see
A switch turned that confusion off
But as i find my feet its light still shines on me.....

And this light is my reality
And this light has changed me
Locked inside a world of keys
Nothing seems to fit my sleeve....

Mirrors smiled when i thought i knew myself
When all my loves could catch my eyes
Now their the same as feelings felt
Numb like everything and nothing else

They never fell from grace
But they can't fill my empty space
Caught in between pain and pain
Darkness blinds in the frozen rains

The closest to me can't see
As i,
That what I need is so far from reach
If eyes could be taught, who would teach
I'd listen to who's never had control
Before the one who's always held the leash

As I'm enduring this curse called life
Right was wrong when wrong was right
Out right left out,
I'm left out, right, of what's left
All that's left, is what's right
And what's right has left, right from sight
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Old 09-09-2008, 07:54 PM   #897
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Default Disconnected

I place a hand on a red brick wall
to feel the heat of the past day
ALone in the night's shadow
Wondering where's my last way
-
Inside i'm losing a nameless battle
In crippiling pain my head meets ground
The constant loneliness punishes
everytime there's no one around
-
Surounded by the incompatible
sulking in their joy
Which is what i want, but can't stand to see
It reminds me, of mine destroyed
-
Staring through a keyhole
of a door to the common world
playing chess all by myself
searching a white desert for pearls
-
Another hope's another reason to cry
What else should I try?
The river's dry, and the sun won't shine
Am i only alive to die?
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Old 09-11-2008, 09:58 PM   #898
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Default In my last nights

The sun's light shades me
It drops my eyes to the ground
And there my mind starts
to sharpen the point of no return

The coldness burns
As the warmth of hope brings me to life
Of no concern
To anyone who sees the sight

And the day moves closer
I can feel its heat, deep in the night
I'm almost over
The last standing thoughts begin to fight

The thoughts of freedom
I've failed to feel or heal this right
Now the leaves fall
And the moving waters turn to ice

I've heard enough sounds
So i place my ears between a vice
I'm giving up now
As I cut loose a flightless kite

This time i won't think twice
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Old 09-18-2008, 11:47 AM   #899
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Default How long?

Whatever's left
When will unknowns salavge it
When will freedom become free
again

I've seen my life
As pain that i could end
As time that i could spend
in sin

Jewels in my eyes
Turned gray and failed to shine
When swirls will become lines
depends

On who knows what
What knows who here can lend
A tight gripping helping hand
defense

From endless none
The non ending loneliness
If my loss could only wish
to win

To win me back
Rescued from foreign land
Where i just cannot blend
in trends

I don't belong
Outcast of thee outcasts
Unseen as these clouds pass
in wind

I'm never here
I've long dissappeared
This can't compare to whats
within
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...and so is the depression, deep...but trues, that is what we're to build in...
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