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09-22-2008, 10:04 PM
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"Come as you are"
Join Date: May 2006
Location: Cincinnati, walnut hills
Age: 22
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I'm growing up so fast right now, over the past 4 months i've done alot more than build.
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The dealer of hope is selling me lies Reasons to live are reasons to die, in disguise This life was never mine, the rivers never ran Cross your arms, its too late for helping hands Spit your pity elsewhere, there's no sympathy needed For one who's never alive, for one who's never completed (Bigot Hitman) http://www.wutang-corp.com/forum/sho...=25482&page=61 |
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09-22-2008, 10:05 PM
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"Come as you are"
Join Date: May 2006
Location: Cincinnati, walnut hills
Age: 22
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Hope starved
I won't stand to fight
This every single day I am giving in..to my shade Sleep on ice caked rocks Smile with bloody teeth The sinking ship is floating out of reach This is much too strong The double edge splits my head Life is much too wrong, as is death I'll never reach the sky My feet can't seem to touch the ground Dying in disguise of painless sound I never should have been The walking curse was born to spend its time in eyes of its storms Now I can't feel the point in living as forbidden weeds Every dirty glove grasps at me And who would want this mind Who could bare to try to change The truth bound tight in concrete chains Comfort me with trash Drown me in your foulest stream Let the blue moons pass, still here i'll be For me, i never asked Now why would I ever want Pictures without backs and without fronts I've lost all touch of me Hopes not to be seen My world druels in hunger, as i bleed
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The dealer of hope is selling me lies Reasons to live are reasons to die, in disguise This life was never mine, the rivers never ran Cross your arms, its too late for helping hands Spit your pity elsewhere, there's no sympathy needed For one who's never alive, for one who's never completed (Bigot Hitman) http://www.wutang-corp.com/forum/sho...=25482&page=61 |
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09-25-2008, 03:33 PM
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"Come as you are"
Join Date: May 2006
Location: Cincinnati, walnut hills
Age: 22
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Blood stain
Next steps become waking motivated
to climb mental walls that Are made of fears forcing feet to fall back In my mind, i speak with alll that self defeats like Evolvling hairless in the coldest lands an' Still far from careless with the rarest hand in my game where, jokers are kings and Aces and two's have a one fall in between That can't find a slot in a full deck I'm that one, Who sits in sunken ships as the sunsets I'm loosing air, trying to escape through darkness frantically looking for ways out, as waves of doubt rock the boat an' I sink lower feeling as though i'm float'in A unnatural high of dying, fly'in out of my mind out of my focus as pain approaches Close'in the lense on my hopes which Represent my last defense Against a life of lifelessness in righteousness
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The dealer of hope is selling me lies Reasons to live are reasons to die, in disguise This life was never mine, the rivers never ran Cross your arms, its too late for helping hands Spit your pity elsewhere, there's no sympathy needed For one who's never alive, for one who's never completed (Bigot Hitman) http://www.wutang-corp.com/forum/sho...=25482&page=61 |
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09-27-2008, 12:31 AM
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"Come as you are"
Join Date: May 2006
Location: Cincinnati, walnut hills
Age: 22
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Breaking A shell
Razor sharp thoughts that go against
eighteen year old grain, Dance on the stage of my brain Causing barely visible pains Allday everyday, it seems Nothing can get between My, soul and the ground to lift it Hours become days, seconds become minutes Dawns become dusks as God becomes trust in the last thread in a rope to break its the last light in a hopless fate A reason to hold on aproaches fake, status Looking into a mirror of Deep sadness with a face of focused hate How can the real me rise When the disorders in my mind collide To form a flipping double edge that rests its weight upon my head There's no easy way out of a maze with no walls Just empty space and, flashes of amazement From depths of problems in my history Measured through old memories Ressurected by daily expieriences Inducing fatalities of positive feelings That create fences with, Tops so far up they're out of sight They're out of mind, like a cloudy future I endlessly climb, sensing the urgency of running out of time...
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The dealer of hope is selling me lies Reasons to live are reasons to die, in disguise This life was never mine, the rivers never ran Cross your arms, its too late for helping hands Spit your pity elsewhere, there's no sympathy needed For one who's never alive, for one who's never completed (Bigot Hitman) http://www.wutang-corp.com/forum/sho...=25482&page=61 |
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09-28-2008, 01:51 PM
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"Come as you are"
Join Date: May 2006
Location: Cincinnati, walnut hills
Age: 22
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Free Shadows
Tied to train tracks, knowing that there's
No trains expected I can't stop the fears as common feelings get ressurected I'm not collected, like a deck of cards Spread throughout two states With blended boarders so crossing isn't hard They are Anxiety and depression killing in unity Forming a off balance three man community Two are best friends, the other's mood Flocks south fast Trying to outlast lonely darkness the clouds cast Struggling to find himself in a land of shedded skins And skeletons from nobodys that died tryin to fit in Nothing was ever just right, Like a pack of racoons without the cover of dark nights Something essential restricting potential All past comforts of acceptance proved detrimental Blues bled through pencils and pens is the only way to see a path traveled clear or to be traveled, Now feeling delayed impacts of each gavel from each descision I chose with blurred vision Months of prision inside of me Shackled by personality and lack of variety In a conform together society Held in check by a yawn revealing lion teeth And to show your own is to be alone in a crowd Of outcasts who will not throw in the towel Free shadows unconnected to the actor's bow
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The dealer of hope is selling me lies Reasons to live are reasons to die, in disguise This life was never mine, the rivers never ran Cross your arms, its too late for helping hands Spit your pity elsewhere, there's no sympathy needed For one who's never alive, for one who's never completed (Bigot Hitman) http://www.wutang-corp.com/forum/sho...=25482&page=61 |
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09-29-2008, 06:50 PM
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"Come as you are"
Join Date: May 2006
Location: Cincinnati, walnut hills
Age: 22
Posts: 2,165
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Destryoing & building
Critically restless but physically fatigued
Mentally confused and sick I can barely stand as i refuse to sit and watch my conditions totally control the water flow to the roots of my soul Warm futures, i pursue in the cold As i leave my dead youth in the snow But sometimes one must relive his past Because often it fostered The current bent out of shape posture that makes ice sweat and water boil Leaves fall from above and rest upon dry soil Turning the lively lifeless gradually This will outcast a rose as a weed Showing no biased, Even if that fold has a seed As i scroll past a pleed, I pled in old memories In nights when deep pains rolled into me became unwrapped, setting off delayed traps Manufactured by actions i cannot take back They say don't say that I say, "i don't say, what you say don't say" "But i say what i feel" Because i'm incarcerated in shackles of steel Which are things that still haven't been solved as they've evolved into life long deals And freedom deals long life... But until then, the green remains the only wrong light
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The dealer of hope is selling me lies Reasons to live are reasons to die, in disguise This life was never mine, the rivers never ran Cross your arms, its too late for helping hands Spit your pity elsewhere, there's no sympathy needed For one who's never alive, for one who's never completed (Bigot Hitman) http://www.wutang-corp.com/forum/sho...=25482&page=61 |
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10-05-2008, 08:32 AM
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"Come as you are"
Join Date: May 2006
Location: Cincinnati, walnut hills
Age: 22
Posts: 2,165
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Landscape escape
Old dried river beds, hollowed out trunks
stretched leathery skin laces stained bones Skies go unseen, just blackness in different tones Holes with measurable depths of no means Forgotten colors of blues and greens Fires run free fueled by the evidence of death Which are ready to spread stronger, with a wrong step All in a ongoing sequence, long kept secret By a face in distress, words can't express the pain As he searches ashes for hope, he collects in shame Denial, a tactic used to protect the brain Just gave time for the archer to perfect his aim And now the clout is unwrapped, exposed to shots That go as punishment to who that gave what he got The strikes didn't leave him bloody, but internal scars That burn non stop as every day they're recharged At the sights of what's wanted, whats needed To make the ill-defeated captive, feel completed As his, will fades away and the flowers grow old TIme becomes a constant pressure, the hours don't fold He looses feelings quickly, from a power so cold It freezes tropics swiftly, with a strength to mislead the bold to points where their lives become dispensable ENding it all, in a last fall, becomes so sensible Love starved from lack of contact to feed off The stranded beings were found and lost by these thoughts Much more sicker than a wheeze with a weak cough Decapitating breezes left the tops of the trees caught In a self-defeating cycle, disconnecting mind from soul Flying in never evers, and cant's, trying to find a though
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The dealer of hope is selling me lies Reasons to live are reasons to die, in disguise This life was never mine, the rivers never ran Cross your arms, its too late for helping hands Spit your pity elsewhere, there's no sympathy needed For one who's never alive, for one who's never completed (Bigot Hitman) http://www.wutang-corp.com/forum/sho...=25482&page=61 |
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10-06-2008, 04:24 PM
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"Come as you are"
Join Date: May 2006
Location: Cincinnati, walnut hills
Age: 22
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Who am I?
So its built a bridge
Between two lands i cannot roam And its patched a fence That keeps me from me Reflections can't show who i am I've been kept from me by sicknesses I've been kept from me by nature Loneliness lead me lost Being found by people, kept me lost Now I need that train Tie me to those tracks tight I won't attempt escape I'll be bound by skewed vision Fish don't swim in loose dirt Worms don't dig in deep water Counting wooden rings won't tell It won't tell how long i've grown ill Now I play with my mistakes as I cry with my mistakes I tie knots with what unties I grow fodder with what i've burned I melt glaciers with what freezes In hellos I wave good bye But to who I am one day i'll say Hello....with no goodbye
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The dealer of hope is selling me lies Reasons to live are reasons to die, in disguise This life was never mine, the rivers never ran Cross your arms, its too late for helping hands Spit your pity elsewhere, there's no sympathy needed For one who's never alive, for one who's never completed (Bigot Hitman) http://www.wutang-corp.com/forum/sho...=25482&page=61 |
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10-12-2008, 10:58 AM
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"Come as you are"
Join Date: May 2006
Location: Cincinnati, walnut hills
Age: 22
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Elsewhere
From bone to skin I'm frozen
The heart is shattered broken Beyond a lively motion I'm not here Hung in jungle vines Aware of what's behind It sends chills up the spine I'm not here Prisoner of a demon Stealing all your reasons To stay another season I'm not here Half-dead, i'm lost and lonely Wondering where could home be? Who'd care enough to hold me I'm not here Why waste the time to find me You'd search death and blindly And with the perfect timing I'm not here The evils reign supreme now The ruthless don't seem wild As a 1 man double team I'll... not be here
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The dealer of hope is selling me lies Reasons to live are reasons to die, in disguise This life was never mine, the rivers never ran Cross your arms, its too late for helping hands Spit your pity elsewhere, there's no sympathy needed For one who's never alive, for one who's never completed (Bigot Hitman) http://www.wutang-corp.com/forum/sho...=25482&page=61 |
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10-13-2008, 09:34 PM
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"Come as you are"
Join Date: May 2006
Location: Cincinnati, walnut hills
Age: 22
Posts: 2,165
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Medication
All this posed freedom, proves containment
If my fate's young death, i don't want to change it No water's clear enough to show what's sunk No canyon's wide enough to ground my jump The spiked walking cane A white pill The straw that broke the back Seroquel The new, oldest snow A white pill The last stand and attacks Seroquel Leave all your joy outside the city's walls And suffer the side effects, of its cause The surface of your floors press across your ceilings A cost of this armor is the loss of feelings.... The closed blinding blind A white pill The dams that shackled rivers Seroquel The empty wall-less maze A white pill Your ever cracking pillar Seroquel I don't want to sleep, just to awake lifeless The calm before the last storm is a understated crisis Nothing can stop me from bashing suicide's bell Except beliefs in god, and the threat of hell I need all my tears As i need all the smiles I want myself in my shoes When I walk another mile Give me back my pains Take this away! Give me back the rains Take this away!
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The dealer of hope is selling me lies Reasons to live are reasons to die, in disguise This life was never mine, the rivers never ran Cross your arms, its too late for helping hands Spit your pity elsewhere, there's no sympathy needed For one who's never alive, for one who's never completed (Bigot Hitman) http://www.wutang-corp.com/forum/sho...=25482&page=61 Last edited by Bigot Hitman; 10-16-2008 at 10:28 PM. |
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10-15-2008, 10:57 AM
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God Of WAr
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Good stuff as always bigot Hitman long time no hear from hope all is well peace.
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10-16-2008, 10:27 PM
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"Come as you are"
Join Date: May 2006
Location: Cincinnati, walnut hills
Age: 22
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Nothings good over here, but how u holdin up? IT seems every month i get hit with a brick, all of a sudden i'm Bipolar, From A-typical depression to Major depression, to finally Bipolar depression. THe diagnosis explains alot, but fuck, i'm struggling to finds reason to live now.
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The dealer of hope is selling me lies Reasons to live are reasons to die, in disguise This life was never mine, the rivers never ran Cross your arms, its too late for helping hands Spit your pity elsewhere, there's no sympathy needed For one who's never alive, for one who's never completed (Bigot Hitman) http://www.wutang-corp.com/forum/sho...=25482&page=61 |
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10-23-2008, 03:37 PM
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"Come as you are"
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Location: Cincinnati, walnut hills
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Here to leave
The snow isn't cold
The water's too dry Lies never told Keep truth alive Caves are too bright Puddles are too deep I'm waiting for light To put me asleep My soul's far from free My head's far from sane Reflections of me Are erupted from shame The bottom's too high The ceilings too low Tear you from me To help me explode The dealer of hope is selling me lies Reasons to live are reasons to die, in disguise This life was never mine, the rivers never ran Cross your arms, its too late for helping hands Spit your pity elsewhere, there's no sympathy needed For one who's never alive, for one who's never completed Pointless blade, worthless Born to embrace doomsday Taken away from the blind One less star in the sky
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The dealer of hope is selling me lies Reasons to live are reasons to die, in disguise This life was never mine, the rivers never ran Cross your arms, its too late for helping hands Spit your pity elsewhere, there's no sympathy needed For one who's never alive, for one who's never completed (Bigot Hitman) http://www.wutang-corp.com/forum/sho...=25482&page=61 |
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10-25-2008, 12:01 PM
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"Come as you are"
Join Date: May 2006
Location: Cincinnati, walnut hills
Age: 22
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The only way out
If i died right now, the sun would still rise
A easy breathless death, a blessing in disguise Hope has walked away, sparking trails of flames In which I will not stray, to follow In which I cannot stay, to follow I won't survive the lonely days _______ These friends can't always be, my reasons to breathe In everlasting pain, but I need them to leave So I can fade away, and die in depths of shame In which I will not lie, to escape In which I cannot try, to escape Who wouldn't embrace my demise?
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The dealer of hope is selling me lies Reasons to live are reasons to die, in disguise This life was never mine, the rivers never ran Cross your arms, its too late for helping hands Spit your pity elsewhere, there's no sympathy needed For one who's never alive, for one who's never completed (Bigot Hitman) http://www.wutang-corp.com/forum/sho...=25482&page=61 |
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10-28-2008, 08:34 PM
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"Come as you are"
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Location: Cincinnati, walnut hills
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Nails in the coffin
There's something assuring my suicide
And I'm coming to accept it Sometimes I wish the dad i never knew Would have went in protected I am one of god's lab rats I know he's watching to see if I make it I'd have a better chance If I were old, sick, and weak, crippled on a slave ship There's no such thing, as along run I remember a time when I thought I knew Who I was when I was young When I was young, I thought I knew the sizes of shoes As i fall, this time don't catch me I'm hungry for the end of it all And deaths call, is sounding like a blessing To the new born who could never crawl How long do i have to die before i'm just dead? How long do i have to live before i'm alive? Worlds full of wonders, aren't always wonderful This one's stolen my reasons to survive
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The dealer of hope is selling me lies Reasons to live are reasons to die, in disguise This life was never mine, the rivers never ran Cross your arms, its too late for helping hands Spit your pity elsewhere, there's no sympathy needed For one who's never alive, for one who's never completed (Bigot Hitman) http://www.wutang-corp.com/forum/sho...=25482&page=61 Last edited by Bigot Hitman; 10-28-2008 at 08:39 PM. |
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