Happy B-Day CCabsinthe02 (RIP)

[Ghost_Deini_]

wow.. heres something i found from him...

"Before I post my rhyme, I just want it to be understood that I am not asking for pity in any way. I appreciate any feedback that I will get (if any), but I am not posting this "rhyme" to hear feedback about personal problems that I have. I don't care if this poem doesn't go to a beat, it goes with my own internal feelings. Every line that I write of this poem is true and I just ask people to look at this poem for what it is, and not the person writing it. Peace.

At the end of my life when I o.d., I hope the legacy
I leave omits all of the tortures that this life has placed on me.
My family is loving, and tries to get me to see my inner strengths and qualities.
Eventually, I must leave all this happiness and one day rest in peace.
Still, I walk the streets, unfurnished and down-beat,
Hating the people and the world, my life is just a black sea.
Full of depression and bountiful amounts of anxiety.
My attitude on life offends many people, but its my real personality.
I'm drowning internally, shackles and chains all over me, when the fuck will I become free?"

amazing.... RIP.

[Ghost_Deini_]

"My style is liscensed violence, yours is patent-pending mindless
Spineless non-talented mockeries that need to be put in silence.
But I guess that with every word its a step.
Spit darts at the world and don't stop till no one is left.
Like a big empty cleft just waiting to be filled.
Shots in the dark, no suspects except the usual
Fools that use grammar tools to expose all the loose
Rappers missing tax day and they late on paying they dues.
I'm a little confused that all this angst could be so abused.
Drug use helps those who need it in this pool of ruthless tunes.
Hesitation and drama could lead our world into bad karma
It's like you need to wear a condom just as body armor
to stop all the diseases that this world has started.
Thinking back on the day when the world was a safe place.
Now its just a time-bomb bout to blow up, just seconds away."

[cd]

I always enojoyed readin his work, he was one of the best members in the Temple whether it was posting his own work or leaving feedback. Sometimes the waters get too deep tomake it to the surface but he is definately missed. Just a shame. RIP.

[mashqauck]

damn dude that sucks. someone should rap all off his works or make a book of em. that would be nice. but man, rip.

[SurreaL]

Rip

Que Descanse en PAZ

[Nexodus the Nth Entity]

this may be belated, but rest in peace to a fallen member of the wtc community

[Protection]

Damn, he died on my birthday, September 6th.

May he rest in peace.

[kingGirlfriend]

Rest In Peace.

[I-Legit]

Originally Posted by Ghost_Deini_

wow.. heres something i found from him...

"Before I post my rhyme, I just want it to be understood that I am not asking for pity in any way. I appreciate any feedback that I will get (if any), but I am not posting this "rhyme" to hear feedback about personal problems that I have. I don't care if this poem doesn't go to a beat, it goes with my own internal feelings. Every line that I write of this poem is true and I just ask people to look at this poem for what it is, and not the person writing it. Peace.

At the end of my life when I o.d., I hope the legacy
I leave omits all of the tortures that this life has placed on me.
My family is loving, and tries to get me to see my inner strengths and qualities.
Eventually, I must leave all this happiness and one day rest in peace.
Still, I walk the streets, unfurnished and down-beat,
Hating the people and the world, my life is just a black sea.
Full of depression and bountiful amounts of anxiety.
My attitude on life offends many people, but its my real personality.
I'm drowning internally, shackles and chains all over me, when the fuck will I become free?"

amazing.... RIP.

i remember the bold one and the one Ghost Dieni posted after your post.....

wow R.I.P. to CCabs....he needed attention but got it in all the wrong ways, i know how he feels. my best friend killed himself Dec. 7th of '03, i'll make a thread on Dec 7th. post pics of me and him n such.....

R.I.P

[Treazon]

I remember this guy havin mad threads in the temple, and he was on of the best writers ive seen on this site easily, although he reminded me more of a poet than a rap lyric writer...but nonetheless he had skill and poured all of his energy and emotion into his writings and it showed. Peace to this fallen artist and i hope he can find it finally..

[36chambers]

Peace CCabsinthe02

[I-Legit]

why is this un-sticky?

36chambers, You Got Soem Explaining To Do

Oh Shit, Did You Ever Go To Japan, Tokyo? Like you Said U Were Going To B4 The Corp Crashed?
I Hooked Up Pages And Pages Beyond Pages Of Shit For You To Do There..Rememebr That....

How Was It If U Went?

[CCabsinthe02]

CCabsinthe02 (June 17, 1984 - Aug. 6, 2004) would have been 21 this year.

His family, friends, & his girlfriend grieve his loss - there was no one like him. He was the spark that lit up our lives and now his light has gone out.

Our son was sick for over two years - he saw many doctors, took multiple medications, worked, went to college, tried to lead a normal life - but never told us the depth of his despair.

He was able to express his fears and innermost thoughts on this website - although he shared many poems with his father and I, he never shared the ones that revealed his suicidal thoughts. No, he was never abused or mistreated. He was very hard on himself - expecting perfection. He was so talented - a poet, muscian, an athlete. He was a beautiful person - his future success was guaranteed - but he couldn't see it. CCabs Mom

[100pr00f]

thanks for sharing......peace