Happy B-Day CCabsinthe02 (RIP)

[Mark]

That's good. Thanks for posting that CCabsinthe02's mommy. I feel that. Keep faith. Peace.

I lost one of my very best friends last feb... He also commited suicide. I never really talk about it with my internet homies, but I do know how it feels to loose somebody who is damn close to you. And the fact that the person ended his own life makes it more sad. Suicide is something that I never understood. But my friend left me a letter youknow. Since I know what it actually is and since I know how painfull it is for the friends and family that have to deal with it after his/her death, I have more respect for people who end their life. It's like nature sometimes. It happens and nobody can't stop it. It will happen anyway.

[PolitiC]

peace to his soul & family

[Mark]

Posted by CCabsinthe02 may 2004

Topic name: Rigid Lining

Existential concepts lined with military bomb-threats.
People react from the fact that safety is a term to cover our sudden Anthrax death.
Our conquests on this planet are nothing more than mere nonsense.
We worship material objects while our brains get twisted and depressed.
So we go to a doctor in hopes of conquering this ailing pest.
Reality hits the pavement when we realize we're addicts to this drug wasteland.
We try and befriend the devil while we quietly whisper Amen.
No sentence can justify this inner anger that intensifies.
All I have to shield myself is darkness where I lie and hide.
My soul has already died and been sent to the devil.
It's my last day, last breath, fade pain, accept death.
We are already imprisoned by society, but I'll be damned if I let them define my personality.

**I had another line that I thought up, but couldn't fit it in this rhyme**
I feel uncomfortable around my relatives,
So I stay dosed up on tranquilizers and sedatives.

I feel uncomfortable around my relatives,
So I stay dosed up on tranquilizers and sedatives.
Anxiety is repetitive, so I stay in a state of readiness.
Anything can happen, but I must not give in to a temptress,
I have anger I wanna vent this, but all that comes out is silence.
It's like all this inner violence has controlled my thought process.
Ever since I can remember, I have been a victim of all this nonsense.
I'm only 20 but feel I've lived a life longer than any prophet.
I have one wing, I continue to breathe until my heart stops the beat
And I drop underneath the earth, and into a lucid dream.
Things aren't what they seem, when reality is distorted for me.
All I want is to be free, but I cannot break the shackles and chains binding me
To eternal slavery, but due to improper behavior lost my soul and became empty.
I feel apathy towards everything, but only sympathy for my destiny.

Originally Posted by oo2

Originally Posted by oo2

"Our conquests on this planet are nothing more than mere nonsense" true.....

"We are already imprisoned by society, but I'll be damned if I let them define my personality"
feelin the 1st verse.. for real...

"Ever since I can remember, I have been a victim of all this nonsense.
I'm only 20 but feel I've lived a life longer than any prophet.
I have one wing, I continue to breathe until my heart stops the beat"

really feelin this... also the last 3 lines. it's like i wrote this, for real.(except for the different styles) keep droppin C. Peace

[Decka]

rip ccabs

[100pr00f]

Originally Posted by Mark Mayoya

Posted by CCabsinthe02 may 2004

Topic name: Rigid Lining






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pretty nice stuff

[Mark]

CCabsinthe02 posted this May 2004:

The Dark Tunnel

Anger pulses through the veins of the strange.
Compassion melts the reactions from the rats encaged.
Instead of living life, I chose to be mentally insane.
That way I've already lost everything, and nothing more can be taken away.

When you're a schizophrenic drug addict with panic attacks,
Girls tend to hesitate to call you, some even give your digits back.
But in the end, we are all going to amount to whatever we can adapt,
Only problem with living lacking morals, I don't know how to react to an attack.

When the darkness comes to swallow the evening till tomorrow,
I lose my euphoria, switch to feeling sorrow in this hollow empty bottle.
Try and see life through your own eyes, not giving in to the temptations around you.
Whenever someone strikes at my pride, I run but can't hide, so what else is there to do?

I close my eyes and feel the heat rise from the past tides that have washed by,
I'm emotional and want to cry, but all I feel is the pain that burns inside.
Without a guide I stride, through this hellish existence we call life,
Hoping I can outlive the suicide that tempts me with its knife.

Originally Posted by Forummember oo2

i feel this shit, son. for real....

a lot of deep lines...

"That way I've already lost everything, and nothing more can be taken away"

there's nothin more dangerous than a man with nothin to lose, for real.

"Without a guide I stride, through this hellish existence we call life,
Hoping I can outlive the suicide that tempts me with its knife."

that's what i always say: "it's all shit."

the rhymes were good too, also the flow. nice piece. one love

Originally Posted by winte

deep.... you're improving ya rhythm and flow too. subject matter is deep, especially feelin the last two verses. PEACE

Reply from CCabsinthe02:

I can't tell you both (oo2 and Winte) how much your feedback means to me. Not only is it coming from 2 of the dopest mcs on this site, but it is also inspiration that you give me to write more. I can't thank you enough for the time you took to read my verse, and the feedback that was given. Peace and Love.

[Mark]

You can find all his old posts on GOOGLE.com and search IN CACHE.

Like this one: http://216.239.59.104/search?q=cache...e02+2004&hl=nl

[36chambers]

good work mark.

[100pr00f]

thanks

[blackwisdom]

We did a few collabs. He loved my work and my critiques of his. I noticed the darkness of his words but looked at it as an escape. I never throught that he would trully escape this harsh reality the way he did. Sometimes you really need to listen to people's faint cries for help. I'm touched through reminiscing over this situation. Rest in peace man. I pray that your transition to the ancestors has been a peaceful experience.

May God bless all of his children

peace